The Love Drug

I have taken drugs in my life, and that is no secret. The secret behind staying responsible is meditative, and knowing why I take the drugs, and having a clear mind when doing so. I tend to not crave drugs, although I may crave the state of being that I get when I am on drugs. The practice of recreational drug use does not appeal to me, but the journey to better understanding my mind, heart, soul, and my body while high is intriguing. I’d explain it more like an ongoing, never-ending mega puzzle. It’s the journey of finding the pieces, trying them in different spots, and still enjoying the moments that don’t fit. When you finish the puzzle, it’s over. The excitement and the high is done. What’s next…coffee and sugar cookies? So therefore, I’m a Mega Puzzle. I am never going to be finished, until the final piece is put in place, until then, I will enjoy the mismatching puzzle pieces and journey on. Love is a rare jewel, a drug in itself. I think Love can be more exciting than any drug I’ve ever experienced. When I feel the effects of Love, my brain shuts down. My criticisms, judgments and doubts go away. I am fearless. I will jump in front of a train. I will walk the tight rope between buildings. I will grab the hot pan from the oven with my bare hands. I will stop thinking rationally. Now, the effects of Love will come and go, so I can continue my everyday life and make rational decisions, but once I see or feel the one(s) I Love, my mind may go astray. It’s a good high. Just let me be. Let me curl up in your arms, lock legs, wrestle or just look at you and smile and laugh. Let me lose myself in your eyes, allow my dopamine levels to increase, until I come down, then we can talk about all the other stuff like work, family and your commute.